Sometimes I hate that I’m so transparent with my readers, because a post like I’m about to write is one of those where I’m DYING to share with people, but at the same time am afraid that people will just laugh at me. I don’t mind the laughs (I laugh at myself all the time), yet I hope that some conversation and contemplation will spark.
This last week, I have been overly emotional. I know this is due to a LOT of things, including spending time with my family last week, reading a book recreationally for the first time in a LONG time, just being a woman with hormones, and my cat dying last night.
Every time I see someone hurting, even when it’s supposed to be “funny”, I hurt inside. I turned on Maury the other day, which I haven’t seen since middle school. It was showing the top 10 guests of 2010, and every single story broke my heart. Baby daddy drama, people cheating on each other, best friends stabbing each other in the back; I couldn’t take it all! So I started bawling like a baby! Friends would talk to me about the hurts they were going through, and the tears just started jerking! I couldn’t watch the ASPCA commercials with all the animals needing to be adopted, because it hurt me to see them hurting.
Now, I’m not having an emotional breakdown (yet). I think that it’s due to my increasing sensitivity of pop culture and how it glamorizes sin and hurt. I don’t find a lot of things funny anymore. I really don’t enjoy movies that curse every few seconds. It hurts me when I see children cursing on television or Youtube, and parents think it’s funny. I just find a lot of things unnatractive.
My challenge to you is to think about things that you have been desensitized to, and really just cry out to God to make those known to you. Pray that you can have a heart for the things God has a heart for. I hope that this week of increased emotions lasts and stays with me, even if that means that I do a whole lot more crying (FYI, I’m not much of a crier).
Here is one of my favorite songs, just for good measure ;)